it's been a very very long time since i update. i had to published this post as i felt very very bad and very sorry to someone.

to her: sorry for causing great misery in you. i felt very bad for hurting you so badly. i think the messages you send me made me know that you have been hurt very very badly. i was thinking throughout the night that how badly i had been treating you and i just realise that i cannot lose you. i am willing to accompany you even if i have to pang seh all my friends or even at the expense of losing all my friends. i thought i treated you very well but maybe i was wrong. i didn't make things clear enough and made you had wild thinkings. i am so sorry. i just hope that i can be forgiven. sorry. i know that you are still fretting over what i said on the phone. but that thing doesn't apply to you. i already promised you that i won't break with you unless you break with me. maybe you had forgotten. but nvm. sorry. i hope that we will get through this obstacle and you won't think too much. if there is a next time, i hope that you will pour all your unhappiness to me as i have to ask some other people to find out what you are thinking. i am really sorry for causing great misery in you. really. i love you more than anything. i wouldn't want to see you avoiding me. message me when you wake up can ? sorry my dear. i love you.